Hi to all,

I got a call on Monday with the news that Bruce is doing better and is getting prepared for a move. He still needs allot of medical attention so we still can't be in the same nursing home. Then, 20 minutes later I got a call and I was informed he began running fevers again so they will keep him for a while longer for more test. Tuesday he ran 104 on and off. Today, Wednesday, I was with him 9:30- 3:00. His fever was 103 and by the time I left it was 100 degrees. Bruce has c-diff, but they also are going to test him this evening. He is going to have a cat scan of his stomach. They want to check for healing from his surgery and make sure there aren't any complications or leaks. He too is being scanned for amonia. He is coughing all the time and has a rattle to his breathing. Pray with me that he keeps his strength to keep his airway clear. I was sadden again by our visit. My Bruce truly is trying yet how much can he struggle and endure before his body gives up from fighting? I do believe in the power of prayer, healing, and faith to watch this journey through. I feel the presence of God with us answering even the littlest things. I've seen God give me the strength when I grow weak, the hope when man announces the limits of this journey and the blessings of renewal through people I know and are meeting. God uses even a stranger at times to give you that sign that He is in control and has it under control. All that is asked of me is to believe that. God knows all and runs the show. I know through His word left for me to read that with God all things are possible and we are not given more then what we can't handle. Here is a warm fuzzy God sent me: I told Bruce he looked alert today and that I'm sorry if my question will make him mad but I told him I was going to ask it anyway and it went something like this: Honey some days you remember things and for a long time you seem to have forgotten our time together. Do you remember me? He answered, "I remember you from day one. I remember your my Shelly Rose and I love you very, very Much and I'm sorry for all the Bull shit I'm putting you through lately. I want to go home, I miss our home and time together." Thank you God! I really needed that moment. I told Bruce none of this is Bull Shit. I cherish our time together, moments like this and the hope of growing through this and returning to our new life together. That's all for now until I know more.
Love,
Bruce's ShellyRose